My deal is odd, even I see this. I am not angry or sad nor do I hate anyone or have anything to blame of anyone. I am simply bored with life or tired of it, I find my self excited over the thought of finishing the final chapter in life however I do understand once I am gone; My wife will be heart broken as will the rest of my family so when this happens I need to make sure they are taken care of (financially) which may bring them a sense of relief and make the mourning process more bearable. My overpriced life insurance doesnt cover suicide which is a downer in its self. Anyways I am loved and I also love my family but somewhere inside of me this emotion I cannot explain has silenced all of the other emotions or the ones that really matter…..the zest for life. How do I get the zest back or get the life insurance to pay. If I could get assistance with one of these dilemas then I am all ears.
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This might sound a little immature, but it’s true.
Life insurance policies do not cover suicide. That said, your policy may very likely cover accidental death. It is very difficult to determine the difference between autoerotic asphyxiation (which is accidental death) and suicide. Just saying…
Dear Bored,
I would say that you are more than bored, perhaps depressed. Absolute boredom, lack of interest or joy from life, is a sign of clinical depression. How do I know this? I’ve been there and worse. Your situation sounds like a chemical depression. Perhaps discuss with a professional the possibility of an antidepressant like Lexapro. You might be surprised at how wonderful a sunset over the ocean still can be.
All the best,
Vedura
PS. Don’t tell them you’re suicidal or they might lock you up which severely depresses finances. Just let them know that the luster of life has faded and you’re not quite sure why you’re still here. That’s only a suggestion. Do what you really feel.
I agree with Vedura. I find that often my depression is not necessarily a feeling of sadness, but a horrible feeling of emptiness. A tiredness of life.
It might feel like you want to die, but you have everything to live for and getting treatment is normally not very difficult.
Speak to your doctor about it. They may be able to help you out of that hole.
I appreciate both of your responses. I have never looked into seeing a doctor for this emptyness (well put). I evisioned depression was for the angry and sad people who have gone through various hardships. I will see if I can find doctor of this type in my area; I am still willing to try. For a long time I have wondered where life altered it’s course and turned me into this negative existance. I originally had thought if I go skydiving; perhaps it will scare me back to sanity where life is appreciated and not just a chore. I did fly a plane last year, I cracked a smile but it lasted as short as the hour flight. In the last year I have developed a nagging feeling of regret for all the wrong I have imposed on others since my mid-teen years all the way up to adulthood, perhaps I am getting my heart back now if only I can be a good father figure for my stepkids; I am drained of energy after work and spend no time with them. Do you believe the Lexpro will help in the energy department as well as a wake up mode from this existance of absence? Again getting tips from you both is better then any doctor whom studies our issues without living them. Perhaps your answers will guide me down the best path for the cure I need. Thanks, Jason