I should be happy. I should be.
My psych didn’t change my meds yesterday. I still want to die. Tried hanging a couple of times before. Maybe I’ll jump today for a change. There’s a 13 level multi-storey car park across the road.
Told me to call the suicide hotline if I’m going to do it. Why do I feel this way? I don’t have any real reason to want to die.
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My psy made me sign a contract that everytime i think about that to call someone or the hotline. Me i wanna die cuz i just dont feel like i belong in this earth.But PLEASE all the hotline or keep talking to me ill try to stay up as much as i can. Apparently theres a way to be happy so lets wait one day at a time and find out if it gets better.
I know what you mean. I feel like i have no reasons to die…but i do.
Its strange…
Want to*
i take meds for my depression. the meds are proabably the worst thing ever. they dont make me feel better. they actually make me feel more suicidal. im working with another doctor to get taken off my meds. its a process and has to be done slowly. you should look into the same thing as well. in the end it will be worth it and im sure i’ll feel great not having to take the meds. hang in there because your a beautiful person.
I just feel so empty inside. I’m so tired.
I think I need my meds. They aren’t helping much any more, though. I can’t work. I don’t remember what I’ve spent most of today doing. I want to die, almost as much as I did just before I got committed last month.
trust me im in the same boat as you. i think about wanting to die everyday of my life but i dont have the ability to actually do it. most of my days i sleep and dont get out of bed. even though were all going through suffering and pain right now, i believe we can make it past this. im probably the weakest person alive and if im still here i know you can fight through this as well.
I think the meds help somehow..try told PLEASE Engie…at least for one day if u really can’t CALL the hotline…the emptiness..the tiredness… i feel them too….the memory lost too…ur not alone…if u dont trust urself go to the hospital i heard that if u go on ur own..it’s easier to get out when u are ready
Thanks guys. I took some lorazepam. I’m feeling a little better. Just can’t wait to get home :(. I wasn’t going to (I mean, I never have before) but if I feel like I’m going to do something serious, I’ll call the hotline.
Aaaaahhhh. Much better, now. Still want to die, but I’m relaxed now. Can’t believe I spent at least ten minutes today punching a wall in the toilets.