Im Sick And Tired

Sorry Teryn,
That I was right. Childhood abuse is one of the hardest things to deal with. These terrible things happen to us before we can understand or cope. The way we do end up understanding and coping…seems to almost become part of who we are…and it’s usually self-destructive…sigh

You would be correct in assuming that there is a reason you are here. Don’t waste as much time as I did wallowing in self pity…ayup…and assuming that somehow you were or are responsible for what others do to you…that there is something “wrong” with you.

I sought help for years with little or no success until I hooked up with an abuse counsellor. They performed magic where psychiatrists and psychologists had failed. Don’t give up…don’t let the bastards win. Stand up and take your power back…your life is of value…and infinitely worth living…but your gonna need help to break old patterns and thoughts…that is all. I wish you all the best and hope that you find your way out of your own Hell…it can get better.

Don’t be a slow learner like I was…after 7 failed attempts…yup i’m slow…I finally figured out that I can’t get out of this that easily either…you would think cutting your own throat would work wouldn’t you? But if it’s not your time…it just ain’t your time.

Sending you lots of positive thoughts and energy
Amakua