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SO hey im secily but most people call me sec. If you really knew me you would know that I was a mistake. A baby that was made from a drunken night being knocked up. My mom has never really been there for me she’s a bit crazy if you ask me, and had my two brothers and i with different men. I have lived with my dad since the age of 3 we don’t always get along. and sometimes we get into big fights, he just yells at me. im 14 will be 15 in January. I was always jelly of other kids at school who had two parents, and i was always made fun of at school because my mom had an affair with one of my piers fathers. Nobody wanted there kids hanging out with me. So i had to pick the bad crowd to hang out with. they didn’t judge me and i felt like i belonged.. but being in the mix with the bad crowd wasn’t always good. It comes with pressure to do things i didn’t always want to do but did anyways. My life at school really changed when i met jonny. Jonny was the boy of my dreams i have been through many different boys. But it all stopped when i started seeing jonny. He dumped me 14xs YUP 14xs i don’t know why i kept going back to him it was like i was addicted. I just kept running to him back and fourth i wasted 3 years of my life on him now going on 4 years. I couldn’t help but to still love him he was there for me through everything with my mom and my sick brother, through all the fights with my dad and even those moments where i couldn’t take anything anymore. I know it sounds wrong huh? Because i have a boy friend currently who’s not him. Its not like im cheating though.. I just still love jonny. After jonny things just kept going down hill for me.. with boys with my life.. i probably sound really dumb but whatever. I just stared to do all the wrong things, but than High school came along freshmen year, so i decided i would date this really nice guy.. i don’t “Love” Him as much as i say i do but i can only hope i don’t mess things up. as for my mother she’s moving to washington DC 🙂 yayay!! i wont have to see that ***** for a long time.