This upcoming January would have been a year of being clean.
I knew I was stronger than this, I had the strength to go this far but I couldn’t take it any longer. I now have marks from quick slices of a blade on my upper thigh. No one else knows about it other than you guys.
But let me say, I’ve never felt better.
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I haven’t tried in a very long time. I am sure you feel much better, I always did. It was sad, really. But no one else understood what it was like to just do it.
I don’t know if smoking can compare to this. But I used to smoke a lot. After 2 years smoke free, I started to smoke when I am drunk, not every time though. I don’t get drunk every day, so it’s only a cigarette or two in month. It feels good, but since I am drunk, I don’t get hooked up. Weird. Maybe you should consider it too if you are desperate to cut yourself? Cause sober mind fucks shit up. I don’t want you to get back on that track you had been before.
Are u using as well? Or are u referring only to the cutting? It sucks that u caved, but what can u do? I know its not easy to resist our vices. Its been ten months since ive used (alcohol) but im so tempted to go get shitfaced and kill myself right now. Its a nuclear war inside i hope i can resist it.
Hang in there and dont cut too much
I went a whole year as well, it was coming up that i get My first tattoo.
Then i cut myself. And i have never felt better than i did that night.
They weren’t little slices though, they were carvings.
I cut up to 19 a day.
I would get a needle and drw my own blood..
Was it safe? Probably not.
Am i ashamed of it?
Nope.
And my best friend/cousin/sister/Daddy
saw them and freaked out. She thought i was doing so good, they all did. And i gave up on it and started again.
I do think i need help, but am i going to get it? Probably not. I don’t know either anymore. Take caution on what you do, where you do it and such.
And i’m here if youever need help.<3