Please help me.
Im on the brink of suicide.
I want to die.
Why can’t i just runaway and live forever alone?
With no harm being done to me.
Is it coming to and end?
Will it ever stop chasing me?
No!
It will haunt me for the rest of my life.
It is my fault he did what he did.
It is my fault he is gone.
Not to a better place.
No, but to a place where is soul will be tortured for ever.
That is where I, am to, destined to be.
But what i must ask.
Is that you remember me as not anyone special,
But me.
-Lexis
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Guilt is one of the worst and most destructive emotions humans can have. But there are different kinds of guilt.
If you have truly and directly caused others pain, then you need to do what you can to make up for it in order to begin healing and moving forward. It’s a brave thing to own up to your mistakes and you might find that forgiveness is possible by doing so. Even if that means a time of punishment.
However, there is also unnecessary, imagined guilt which is far more common. Are you blaming yourself for a concrete action that YOU absolutely did that led to this pain?
Or do you think that somehow you’re just connected to it and indirectly did something that might have influenced someone else’s decision?
BTW, there’s no such thing as Hell, so at least stop worrying about that. No one is suffering in eternal damnation because of your actions no matter what. 🙂
I feel like it was my fault that they died… so I know what you’re feeling. I won’t lie, it WILL stick with you forever, no matter what. But you WILL realize that it happened, and can’t be undone. Over time, the pain WILL subside, and only memories will remain.