Hi all, Id like to share my story and need advice before i decide to draw the final curtain ill tell you my story first.
Me and my girlfriend had been together for nearly 2 years she was the best thing ever to happen to me other than my 6 yr old son, recently we broke up i had kissed another girl and been txting her my girlfriend found out and dumped me. I have a problem with self esteem due to things that happened in my past. She says she wants to be friends and has promised she doesnt want anyone else and would not talk to me if i move on but we can never be more than friends and she thinks im self fish and self centred. 4 yrs ago i was sectioned for attempted dbl attempted suicide and now i find myself lower than ever. ive put the drugs in a shot glass i ve 900 mg tramadol 700 mg codeine about and about 70 mg morphine is that enough to cause lights out?
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So girl friend dumped you after you kiss in another girl. And you got a 6yr old son to. Grow up. People Break up. Or are you out for revenge. And hope in you off in your self will make her feel bad. Grow up.
Its not for revenge im sick of hurting everyone close to me. I had never really forgive myself for failing the first suicide attempt
We have a strange change of perspective after bad things happen in a relationship. The girl I was with treated me like crap. I did not like her a lot of the time. But she left me, and now for a year I have missed her and thought about her like the greatest thing in the world. My brain is lying to me.
I think the same might apply to you. If everything was so great about your girlfriend, if you were really happy in the relationship, you never would have started kissing and texting someone else. But either she found out or you told her about it, and it led to big consequences, so now you look back and feel a lot of regret about it. But you have to realize you did it for a reason. Don’t just blame it on insecurity or your past. You did it because something in your relationship was not fully keeping you interested. So just try to let it go, you couldn’t have been too crazy about her if you let it happen in the first place. I was more in love with my ex than life itself and I can tell you when you feel that way about someone you don’t even WANT to kiss someone else. So I think you should just accept the relationship wasn’t working out anyway, rather than looking back on it and thinking it was so great.
People refer to cheating as “making a mistake”. But I don’t buy that. You have a brain. You’ve been in a relationship for two years. You didn’t just walk around a corner and suddenly you were kissing another girl. You thought about it. You knew you were starting to feel attracted to her. You chose to cheat. You did it, which means you couldn’t have been all that in love with your gf. You didn’t make a huge mistake, you make a conscious choice, and that choice showed that you didn’t really care so much about the original girl anyway. So just let her go now.
As far as the question you asked about your drugs. We don’t talk about methods and advice like that here. It’s against the rules.
It’s funny you say you are tired of hurting those around you so you think you should die. If you kill yourself, you will again be hurting those around you. Plus you have a kid, so frankly how dare you consider suicide. They need you. If you feel remorse for how you have hurt people, be a strong man and do the hard work to show that you want to change that. Killing yourself just means you’re upset that you’ve hurt people, but you’re going to take the easy way out to escape your suffering and again hurt other people in the process.
Besides, you got off easy, you cheated on a girl and she says she still wants to be friends and doesn’t want you to move on right now? Most women would have never spoken to you again. Be her friend. Work towards showing her that you’re sorry if you really feel that terrible about it. If you kill yourself, not only are you not really sorry for hurting other people, you’re actually choosing to hurt them all over again.
Man up. Fix it. Spend time thinking about how to fix what you did instead of thinking about what amount of drugs to mix to kill yourself.
I hear you man im sorry about your pain i have a problem with attention and self esteem i do have counselling starting to talk about summit that happened to me in the past that should help resolve those issues. It isnt an exscuse and i know i did wrong i know she was the girl because everytime she walked in the room it lit up