Why would he do that?

So there’s this guy.. Ha! There’s always a guy isn’t there?

But this story.. My story is completely different.

I never used to talk to guys.. They never used to talk to me.. Not usually.

And I’m new.. I just came this year.. So there’s a guy who is friendly, sociable and all that. My past was my past and I’ve decided to move on from it.. Sometimes.. yes the flashbacks come back and I either cry or I either smile.

Anyway, this guy eventually becomes my friend. And then he starts hanging around me more.. Well he’s kind of popular, because he’s really friendly and stuff, so he talks to everyone!

But then a girl points out that he hangs around me more than the other girls, and I honestly didn’t realize it.. True I did kind of have mixed feelings for him but I wanted to get it straight with myself that I only liked him as a friend.

I mean of course I will have some sort of feelings towards him because he’s like the first guy to actually take some interest in me! He noticed all the small things.. And he even noticed my behavior and how I act and stuff that I didn’t know about myself!

Usually when I have crushes.. They never used to know that I existed.. I was literally invisible. Not that I’m confessing that I have a crush on ‘this’ guy! But just saying.

And then today.. At the last two periods.. He just completely ignores me! Like avoids me and it hurt.. I don’t have a good past with ignoring.. No actually my past with ignoring sucks.

And he talks to all the girls and stuff instead of me! Sure he might have tried small talk.. But he’s never like that! Usually he’s really talkative with me.. And everyone else.. But today was totally different!!

Does  he hate me?

Because that’s what I believe when people ignore and try to avoid me.

That, they hate me.

Because that’s just how my life went on.

There are people who hate me.. I understand that.. Heck, even my best friend in my earlier school kind of hated me.

But they had a reason to.

So whats his reason?

I can’t literally stop crying and feeling upset! I know stupid.. but that’s life right? Life Sucks.

Every half an hour.. when I remember about the things that happened today.. I mean today was a bad day, added up with him.. It’s worse, I start crying for no reason. I’m afraid that he’ll leave.. That he’ll start ignoring me like all the guys in my earlier school.. I understand if he does.. But he should have a reason right?

I mean earlier today something that got me really angry happened and I was really looking forward to telling him! And then all of a sudden he avoids and ignores me!

And now it’s the weekend.. So I have two more days until I see him again.

You have no idea how much I just wanted to go right in front of him and ask him, “Do you hate me? You’ve been avoiding me.. So, do you hate me?”

I didn’t exactly get the chance to though.

I’m not usually like this! It’s just that I’ve had a bad day.

It sucks. It really does.

-shatteredfragments