Bottled.

if i do not bore you……… let me tell you a true story.

i am the guy who is always joking. when family or friends are around – i am often told that i am being too loud. goofy is kinda me. I like to simply be a bit “who gives a fuck” and be obnoxious (in a fun way).

so…. when i got locked up in the nut house a few months back for depression / suicidal lock down….. a family members response was “Jamie? Really? No way….” Kinda utter shock. NOBODY knew. Not my family , not my kids, not my wife. NOBODY knew that I was dying inside. NOBODY knew that I was in a room full of people – yet totally alone. Nobody at my work knew I was at the brink. I swallowed BOTTLES (yes multiple bottles – IE 60,000mg) of acetaminophen… just 10 feet from someone…. ODing. dying. And nobody knew…..

so. it does happen. And i would guess it happens alot.

I hope you find a BETTER way. I hope you find someone u can talk to. A doctor, a friend, a family member, me or anyone here…. I hope you choose to find SOMETHING that makes u smile.