My mind is a lot more clear so I’ll try saying what I have to say again.Christmas being here reminds me that I have spent a year having depression. , I’ve been looking at a lot of people that I find inspirational and thinking wow they look so put together,love themselves, know what they want, etc. and I’ve been feeling that if I had believed in myself and had never became depressed in the first place that I would be better off but I realize now after thinking that I wouldn’t really be all that better off because before I became depressed I was an insecure person who let people walk all over her and I didn’t believe in myself  (this all still stands)I guess that’s why I envy people who have always been comfortable in their own skin. I don’t know where I’m going with this post I just wanted to let this all out, especially because I don’t really have people I can tell about my feelings, I mean we all have friends and family but I don’t have anyone that would really just listen and not judge me for having these feelings.
Thank you for listening
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Hopefuldreamer: So you’ve been depressed for a year and, as you look back on your life, you realize that you were previously “too nice” to others and didn’t have enough self-confidence. That sounds like a set-up for depression!!! It seems like the people closest to us are the first to judge and not really listen. Glad you found this site and hope it helps you. People here tend to not be judgmental at all.
Yeah I never thought I would get depression but after a year of battling it on my own I guess I’m rather glad to have found this site and glad, and I agree people really don’t get it I haven’t told anyone I have depression but from what I’ve seen happen to other people they believe that you can just get over it.
Hopefuldreamer–Yeah, I think it’s denial much of the time. People want to believe their own lives are going ok and therefore take pains not to notice when others aren’t making it. I know a year of depression is a long time, but not long enough to warrant suicide, I wouldn’t think. I realize I don’t know your story, so sorry if I’m making assumptions. I know it’s terribly painful to suffer alone like that. Any chance you can find a professional with an open mind and heart?
Unfortunately I can’t