Forgotten

I know how you feel. There have been many years where my family completely forgot my birthday. Last year, my mother even physically beat me on my birthday. I was left crying the entire night. I starved myself for 4 days to numb myself. During the entire ordeal she just kept screaming “I don’t care if it’s your birthday, you stupid little b****” The pain never really goes away either, no matter how much you try to cover it with more positive memories. I’m sorry you’ve had to feel so horrible on your birthday. Hopefully one day you will be surrounded by those who cherish you and would celebrate your special day all week! Stay strong. Sometimes it’s better to just smile on your birthday alone. Don’t let others hold you down 🙂

Yeah, I definitely agree. No apology needed, I’ve always felt she has been unfair. Of course with years of living with her actions I’ve come to think it might be me causing it. Not to steal any spotlight here, but usually my mom and I argue over very petty things, like me doing laundry at night or cooking dinner while she’s cooking dinner (as if there is no space in the kitchen for 2 people!) It usually escalates from there to a physical altercation. Ends with me getting my hair pulled or pushed or slapped. I suffer because I know there’s really nowhere else for me to go. It hasn’t been that physically bad lately but a lot of those memories never go away. I’d just like to give hope to others who feel alone that they can still be strong even when others keep putting them down or forget them. 🙂