I left my abusive boyfriend/fiancee of 5 years earlier this month.. My parents practically kidnapped me and sent me out of state with realtives to get away from him.. but hes not a threat anymore.. He’s moved on.. told me the new girl he’s with is much better than I could ever hope to be 🙁 well good for them.. I still love him for some reason and that’s what really gets to me.. I know its truly a shame for her because once this happy stage wears off she’ll see his abusive side.. I’m just so hurt.
My parents want me to start my new life here. they were also so controlling.. always thought they knew what was right for MY life. and I’ve always gone along with it. I’m 22 years old and I want to be back home!! I hate it here in this state.. nothing makes me happy.. nothing makes me smile. I just fucking hate it. but they wont help me move back, they say he’s still a threat. Well what they dont understand is I’m a greater threat to myself if they force me to stay in this state!
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Hi. I’m sorry to hear that you’re hurting so much, being in a new state, but your parents are trying to help you. You have to forget about your ex-boyfriend and move on with your life. There are plenty of decent guys out there. Plus, you’re still young. You’ll find a good guy who will love you and treat you with respect. It’s better to be single than to be in an abusive relationship. Have you talked to your parents about how you’re feeling?
Yeah I understand I know they’re trying to help me but I’m so alone out here.. I dont want to live in this state and especially start a life out here.. my heart is telling me this isn’t where Iwant to be.. anywhere but here. in the middle of nowhere with only cows and cornfeilds 🙁 I don’t even have friends out here to keep my mind off things. I just want to be home.. I know I’m complaining and acting like a baby:( haha I just truly am so unhappy being here its ridiculous. I KNOW that this is not where I’m supposed to be.. anywhere but here.
searching4hope88,
“in the middle of nowhere with only cows and cornfeilds”
sounds like hell to me too! sorry lets hope you can get back soon. hang in there!