I put a story up on this website a couple months ago, I was doing fine but for the past couple of days I have been crying. I have no reason to live, I am a *****, because all my friends like this girl but I hate her with a passion, she talks about herself all of the time and its so annoying, I am  going to fail all of my exams because I can’t remember anything I have learnt and I have asked my mum for help but she says she is too busy to help because she is cleaning and doing her uni work, but she isn’t she is just avoiding me. I have no clue of life or anything like bills, morgatges,  uni, collage, and nobody is helping me. I have tried  to commit ages ago, I though about doing it, but now I am definite I want too kill myself. I have seen the doctor because my mum instated, school have been helping but I just see no reason to live. I have two younger sisters who hate me, my mum and dad are divorced, both with partners because my dad cheated on my mum. My life is completely messed up. half of my school has lost their virginity, have done stuff and I haven’t even kissed a boy properly, I am 15 years old, and I don’t think I am ugly, well my friends and some boys at my school have said I am good looking, I hate my life. I love baking and I messed that up, I am just a fucking screw up at life. I hate my life, I feel like I am a bad friend aswell. I want to die, I have no clothes in my wardrobe because I got rid of them all because I was going to refresh my life but that hasn’t happened I have these thought again, and there is nobody I can talk to.
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Iamsoafraid, you wouldn’t be a ***** for not liking someone when everyone else does! To me, I would admire that. That shows that you have the ability to form your own opinions on things and not go with the crowd. And personally, I feel the same about someone I know. To me, I’d say that shows maturity in you in a way. As for family members being idiots, I guess all I can say is you’re not alone. I have that too. You’re even more mature as you haven’t got off with anyone. I’ve just turned 17 and I’ve never kissed a girl properly. It happens. They’re just finding themselves and I bet that their activities don’t make them much happier at all in the long run. Ha, I have no clothes either really, but that’s cuz I don’t give a damn about my appearance, and you can always talk to me if you ever want to. 🙂
Thank you so much for taking time to reply to my story 🙂 thank you for admiring me 🙂 haha here’s the thing I like need some advice, so I know this boy he goes to my school and we have been texting a lot, and I really like him and then he invited me round to his house New Year’s Eve, so I went and there were champagne and the cork was popped or whatever and spent an hour just stealing and messing With the cork then we held hands for hour and we kept smiling at each other, and the he kissed me at midnight then he we actually had a kiss and he told me he really likes me , but then things got really intense, and I gave him head and know I feel like I am a really bad slut and I am worried what all my friends will think and what people with think. But we are going out now so I just want an honest opinion, because now I think he wants to do stuff with me and I am so nervous. Please help 🙂
Hello I am so afraid. It feels odd to welcome someone to this site because anyone who comes here is usually feeling really bad, but anywho, welcome to SP.
There is loads of people here you can talk too and probably 3-4 girls I cant think of off the bat who have similar issues. So feel free to express yourself on here and people will comment and stuff.
I am sorry you are feeling so bad, but it is not warrented. You are 15 and worried about sex. I am 22 and still a virgin. I have had opertuinity but I want to wait for the right person. Dont worry about what others say. its your life, live it whatever way makes you happy.Also I am male, and not hard on the eyes, so I am a very odd fish but thats how I am and I have accepted it.
Although I dont think you are anything like me. I think your just an average teen, everyone has the worries you are having now and you will overcome them in time and when your ready, not before. Also your friends are probably lying 🙂
Regards the college and exam stuff and bills, these are things you will figure out in time, I was pushed out of the boat at 18, I had to put myself through college and a part time job for 4 years. With no experience of being on my own before it, but we rise to the occasion, and you will too. So dont worry petal, enjoy being a teen and not an adult. Its not as fun as it seems. The freedom is nice but the responsibility freedom of being a teen is sorely missed sometimes.
So stop worring about others and the future and try to enjoy the here and now.
Sorry about your parents btw, that blows.
I wish you all the luck and happiness in the world. Chin up.
Ruins
Thank you Ruins this has helped a lot and put a smile on my face but if you could please read the reply I gave to VacatedHappiness, I could really need some advice because I am really nervous about everything please be honest, even if its brutal honesty it will be appreciated and as for my parents it’s no big deal, it happened when I was like ten so it was a long time ago besides they both seem happy but thank you to replying to my post 🙂 this really appreciated 🙂
i have seen u post on some other peoples stories and u really do say lovely things to people 🙂 what u need to do right now is stop thinking about others and start thinking about yourself! if u dont confront all of this now and talk to someone about this it will just keep getting worse and eating u up every day.. you can most certainly talk to me at any time all u have to do is ask 🙂
Thank you 🙂 I have told my mum, and told one of my friends so I guess I am feeling a lot better 🙂 I will talk to you if I ever feel down 🙂 thank you again for reading my story 🙂