Is life worth living, knowing you wont get better? Ive been depressed for 6 years. In those 6 years, I’ve attempted suicide 9 times. I’ve been hospitalized, and I’vs seen doctors. I refuse to go back. Everyone who has tried to help me, I push away. I would rather be alone and then die, then get help, because I don’t know how to be happy anymore. I am not sure if I ever knew how to be. Maybe its for the best.
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GoodMorning EndlessWhispers
The answer is YES. I have suffered from a severe depressive disorder(melancholia) for over 50 years…and although I have attempted as many times as you have…it occurred over a much larger time frame. I am no longer suicidal…atleast not currently…haha…and I’ve learned to experience JOY…but it was a personal choice.
You ask for help and then say you don’t want it and won’t listen to it…little passive/aggressive?..hahaha So I won’t waste words. If you change your mind and actually WANT some help…me and the others will be around eh?
Peace
Amakua
Its hard to accept help after being alone for so long.
It’s worth it as long as you feel as you’re feeling currently. What you have is passion and despair. Not everyone’s gifted with these kinda things. You feel more than “normal” people, and that’s what makes you who/what you are. Love it and LIVE with it, that’s the only way you can come to terms with your depression.
Hey EndlessWhispers,
Just curious how you know you won’t get better. I personally don’t think depression per say gets better…it’s always there waiting to take me out in a weak moment…but we can learn coping skills…change old patterns of thinking etc. So it can get better…but nah…I don’t think there is a cure. Depression for the most part is a state of mind. So I guess…you have to change your mind…easy eh? I’m working on it. There are lots of folks here with lots of ideas of ways to deal…the help is free for the asking…but unless you are ready to ask and listen…I dunno. Stick around…read some of the other posts…comment if you feel the urge…and let us know if and when you would like some advice…or just someone to listen and hear you….that’s what we get paid the big bucks for…hahaha
Peace
Amakua