Letter to my family

Mum, This family is broken, it’s all your fault, you were never the mother I needed, and it’s way too late to fix it.

Dad, You were always honest with me, always treated me like an adult, but sometimes there are things you don’t tell your little girl, ’cause they could very well break her heart.

Big brother, You always put on a happy face, and say family means everything to you, but when it comes down to it, when I actually need you, you aren’t there.

Sister, We never got along, but I always looked up to you nonetheless, but now I see you’re just as sad as me, you’re only better at hiding it.

Little brother, Oh, and how naive you are, but you’ll learn soon, that you can’t have it all, you’ll always end up right back here with the rest of us, but I can’t tell you not to hope. I just wish you could avoid this.

I remember the time dad tried to kill himself, I remember when mum and dad fought and mum moved out and then ended up in rehab, I remember when my big brother dropped out of high school because he was too stoned all the time, I remember when my big sister started pulling out her hair, I remember making plans to runaway when I was 9, I remember the day my little brother was born. I thought he could make everything ok.

But he didn’t.