Numb.. So very numb.

Hey Chaifair. I’m 17. You know, when you reach up to the point where you finally get numb, then you are at your strongest. My advice is keep moving forward because you are no longer afraid of anything. There is one quote which I like: “The strongest and bravest ones are the ones who have nothing left to lose.”

I sometimes feel numb and believe it or not, I’m grateful for it. Because everything feels a thousand time better when you don’t give a shit. Better than sitting crying your eyes out and screaming.

loveisdifficult,

The only thing I’m afraid of being numb, is when somebody DOES break down all the walls around me one day. When it happens I will be a clingy and dependent girl. I’ve been through this situation once… when my ex came along. He was sweet and serious, and I told him the secrrets of my dark past. I thought he would be there… but in the end? He left, too.

So I find out it is better to be alone. I’m building walls around me now, to keep people away, to be numb inside. But I’m scared if one day another guy comes along and I will fall again.

Good luck, you can and will get through this. GBU.