So i found the hand gun i knew the old man had. im not into guns cause i have morals against them so i dont work them well but i know it well enough to shoot. so i cocked the gun and couldnt figure out how to fix it without shooting it so i had to take it outside and shoot it. powerful little thing. crush my skull good! so ive been really thinking about using it to end my life soon. but i guess im scared to do it. i dont know why. i cant find anything worth staying alive for. being dead sounds like the perfect game plan but im just to big a sissy to end my suffering. guess right now im just ranting :/
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We all rant. Youre not alone. I cant say dont kill yourself cuz it would be hypocritical for me to say since i want to kill myself as well. I just pray that we find healing soon.