to live everyday,i need to struggle and fight the urge to kill myself,to cancel the idea of suicide from my head,to believe that tomorrow will be a better day,to hope that i’ll be happy again,to have faith in God that he will save me from this hell that i live.
to live a word i always say,still clinging to it with despair,i wanted to be normal like everybody is,but unfortunately i’m just a mistake.
why should i hold into a life that make me sad?why should i struggle everyday to live?i feel sorry for myself,sorry for the people who knows about my existence, i feel sorry for the people that i love and care for,because all i do is making them sad,and my acts are unreasonable for them to understand.
yes i confess that i love them and care for their happiness but they never cared for mine and never understood why i feel  like this,only God know because he can see what in my mind and heart.
so i just need another reason to give up living and just say goodbye to my heart beating,and i just need one reason to fight for this life,but i’m still hung around the edge trying to figure out who will throw me to hell and who will pull me to him, to this cursed life that i live.
”’nour”
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alot of people feel like you me too i think it’s kinda normal? i agree with you about whating to go if your sad all the time but hang in there and try to change things a little bit.
things doesn’t change,i’ve tried my best,but still there is nothing,the same emptiness,the same feelings,just want to let everything go ,well i won’t rest in hell but at least i will rest from my sufferness in this cursed life that i live!!
i feel the same way your giving me a good reason to off myself!
i don’t give reason to anyone
and i think death hate me since i attempted suicide 3 times but failed, i think God want me to suffer more,to repent the sins and desires that i have!!
sinful desires,
ok now your getting interesting what sinful desires???
well as a start suicide,am a bi,drugs,alcohol..
sinful desires,
so far that’s a good reason for half the world to off themselfs?
are you a boy or girl? i know what’s that got to do with anything? i’m just interested.
am a girl,17 years old
and yeah i know it seems silly but for me it means lot,the power to adapt with reality is different from one to the other!!
sinful desires, got to go old lady is up!
ok,bye!!
I can’t really speak for this since I’m a year younger than you, but all I can suggest is trying to keep on living. I know that advice is all to plentiful and easy to give, but I’ve decided to see what I can find for myself in the world before I off myself. Maybe if I keep living I’ll find a reason. It’s all I can really offer as help. I hope it helps you a little.
until now all the reasons i’ve got is to throw myself to hell
nothing and nobody gave me a reason to fight for this life