I am so much luckier than the rest of you. Though my suffering is constant and agonizing
mentally, and stabbing aching physically- I am easily distracted. I have not been through the horrors you have, and I haven’t 10minutes of downtime in my day. I can lose focus, breath unrestricted for a few moments each day. I am only slightly suicidal. I have yet to cut myself. This is because I am shallow and I have a reputation to uphold- to my family, my classmates, my teachers, my coworkers, officials I need to impress…..
I am so much luckier than the rest of you. And for this, I am terribly sorry. I haven’t any right to ask for relief from this unjustified pain. I am so sorry to you who have truly lived hard lives, and still made it this far. You are incredibly strong and inspiring people. Despite your suffering, you are still here, still strong.
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There’s nothing wrong with asking for help. You may not feel that you need help, but believe me, we all need help at some point. Sometimes, it also easier to stay busy and occupied than to deal with our true feelings and emotions. I also have to be strong each and every day, for myself and for my students.
I’ve read a lot of you on here. You must be an incredible teacher. It would not only be a loss to all of us here, and to all of your family if you committed suicide or died of natural causes, it would be a loss to the hundreds of students whose lives you have and will impact.
I know I need help, I just don’t deserve it like the rest of you.
Lets just say I’m as unlucky as they come. It doesn’t matter. You shouldn’t cut youself and you shouldn’t consider suicide. I’ve read your posts and your reason for your pain is different from mine, sure, but you’re obviously successful in life and it will pass. That doesn’t mean your pain isn’t real though, if something makes you feel that bad it’s okay to express your feelings. It doesn’t matter what the problem is. No one here is here to judge you, we’re here to help each other.
Thank you. This is an excellent example of why I’m still functional. No one should suffer. I suppose that’s one way I try to make up for what I’m doing. I can balance out me being unhappy with my perfect life if I try and comfort those who have experienced real hardships.
hi easilyhopeless,
dear really i don’t know what to write.but seriously you are a inspiring person i believe.because i think you are strong enough because you were able to solve the problems in your life with yourself.
Not the one that hurts me though. Everything I’ve’succeeded” in doing was really just a matter of odds, chance. The only one I’ve had to handle has proven too much for my weak self.
Thank you though.
Well if you are so lucky..why did you ad this many post in just one month…that doesnt look lucky to me…think hard on what you call luck..luck might just be you reaching out to the right person for help.
Nah, I’m just a whiny *****.