Why am I always the one that has to change?
Why do I get yelled at for telling the truth about how I feel?
Why is life so fucking difficult for me?
What’s wrong with me?
Who can I turn to?
Does anybody care?
Can anyone see or hear me?
Why can’t I breathe?
Why do I no longer have any control over my own mind?
Why is the world such a blur?
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Im,
1. You don’t, but you can’t make other’s change, so you either have to have a hell of a lot of courage, or you change yourself
2. You haven’t been telling your feelings to the right people.
3. It’s difficult for some, for some it’s not. It has just happened, but you’re the only one that can change it.
4. Nothing is wrong with you; you just have a small bit of depression in you. Curable.
5. Someone professional, or us.
6. We care.
7. We can see and hear you.
8. Take deep breaths and get a glass of water. Calm down.
9. You are still the only person who has control of your mind.
10. It is not. You just need to stop being a blur yourself.
We’ll be here if you need to talk.
Sinine,
I went to talk to someone several times before and they told me I needed to be on medication, so I did that. Nothing changed. They made me feel like I was going insane. I feel like everything is wrong with me. I’m always fading into the background in everyone else’s eyes. And I’m slowly deteriorating in front of my own. I can’t calm down, too many thoughts, too many feelings, too much for me to handle. The doctors told me that they didn’t think I had control over my thoughts anymore. I feel empty…
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Im,
Have you tried exercise? Exercising helps against depression – it’s a scientific fact. It takes a LOT of time, but it helps. It’s worth it in the end.
I play basketball and softball. I condition all the time but it does nothing. I have no safe place…
sinine that your answer for everything, exercise 😀
Im,
How long and how many times a week do you exercise then?
S,
But it truly helps! I’ve seen exercise make it’s magic before! 🙂 I dislike the chemicals in today’s medicine and always look for alternative methods. (Not to say that pills don’t work. They do; I just have a slight aversion to them myself.)
Everyday of the week except Sundays!!! And for 3 hours…
Im,
No, I meant for how long have you been doing it? Weeks? Months? Years?
Ive been playing both sports since I was in the first grade. I played volleyball as well but I quit playing.
Im,
Alright then. I find that you need medicine alongside with your exercise. Have you talked to someone professional? Have you tried medicine? If so, then how long did you take it?
I have taken medicine before. I took a certain kind for a month but it made me dizzy and gave me massive headaches. And then my doctor prescribed something different and I took that for a couple months but stopped because I didn’t like the fact that I was only happy because the pills made me that way. Its like my feelings didnt seem real to me. And yes I have spoken to professionals before in my life and they all just made me feel like I was crazy.