I just found this site via google and thought it might help me find some answers to what I should do now.
I’ve been having some serious depressions since I was 13,have been cutting myself for 5 years and had suicidal thoughts ever since.
I’ve been dating this girl for quite some time now and I’m seriously in love with her. The thing is that I’m feeling like I’m bringing her down,it feels like she is going insane and it is because of me. She realizes herself that something isn’t quite right with her and I’m too afraid to tell her that it’s probably me. I’ve started cutting myself again and she thinks its her fault,which it isn’t,but she doesn’t believe me. She is the only thing I have left in my life that makes me happy, I can’t leave her.I feel like killing myself is the only option I have left so she could live a normal life again.
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Hi and welcome to suicide project. Maybe you should stop cutting yourself, because it is making your girlfriend very uncomfortable. If you truly love her then you will retire your razor. Explain to her that you have suffered with depression and you’re trying to move on. Hope things work out.
I hear ya.
Talk to her about it…girls are understanding, especially when they’re in love. Tell her everything, leave nothing out.
She will understand and try to help. Let her help. She clearly wants you in her life. Let her be there and accept all the help you can find.
There are counselling options. There are alternatives to cutting if you wish to stop. Elastic bands don’t leave scars. you can work yourself down to being cutting free. I did.
You are a couple and can work things out together. It’d be far worse leaving her alone by killing yourself.
Think about how hurt she would be. She would feel responsible …. she would be destroyed. The farthest from normal.
You can turn around from this.
Hope this helps you.
Take care