Something I have heard many others say which I dont understand fully… “if you wanted it you would have ended your life before coming here” (writing this, telling us how much you want to die etc etc)
Why cant someone ‘want’ something if they havent achieved it yet ? I heard from families and teachers growing up that if I havent got what i want im not trying hard enough but this is just old school thinking. I can want a Uni degree or job promotion but I cant get it right ‘NOW’.. I need to work for it and earn it…
Same kind of think applies with suicide… its a big move.. a hard move.. it takes effort, dedication etc etc.. simply ‘wanting’ it is not enough and telling someone they havent achieved it because they dont want it is not true…
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That doesn’t exactly mean that the people are saying that you are lying.. People mean that you are hoping to be saved. That somebody give you a reason not to kill yourself and that you haven’t entirely given up. A part of you still want to live.
I see what they’re getting at it but I don’t like the thought of impulsively doing it. If I plan it and things get better, I can scrap my plan. I’m not ALWAYS in the mood to kill myself.
And I think furrball’s right… posting on here means we’re at least HOPING there’s hope to be saved…
I’m on here to steel myself for departure.