Hurting from the inside

helloHello people to take in my doom and gloom. I cried all morning. I wanted to die. I still do even things are calm. I feel out of place and overall just upset withmy world. The person I am and the situations I have lived and not lived. Time I wasted and people….I sort of realize that being a part or wanting to be a part is what hurts me so much. Because I can’t be or simply don’t. Anyways. I stopped caring. And I am eager to go   Not eager I hate to go.  I just can’t imagin every being happy.