Im not going to lie to anyone here. I have not got the worst problems ever. Im average looking and i come from a privileged background. I am scare of failure. I have lived my entire life in pressure and now i am finished. All these exams and stuff, i cant cope. My parents pay so much money to give me this lifestyle and i have let them down. They deserve better than me. So im going to do it. Im going to use a handgun we have hidden away. I just wanted to be slightly remembered. Don’t call me stupid or im overreacting, because even though i don’t have the worst problems here, i have been through a damn lot. If i post again, you will find out if i have not done it.
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By coming here shows you care, so there’s still life ahead of you, you just don’t know why yet, so do what you can and hang on, ok? 🙂
My parents, invested thousands in me as well for education. Now that I couldn’t cope anymore due to physical and psycholigical issues. They actually are holding the money against me as well. And I know it’s fucking horrible. I don’t blame you at all.
There is no such thing as a ‘priviledged’ life. That’s just their illusion, and the illusion of modern society they indoctrinated you upon that is making you feel like you either are in or ‘dead’ out.
Now, in a way this is true, I’m the ‘living’ (feel dead nowadays anyway) example. I’m just being shoved outside like a dog e.g. because I couldn’t cope with school. But unlike you maybe, I’m way to anxious to kill myself. But you know to what madness I resorted to? Hope. Hope… It’s a dangerous thing, it can drive a man insane, so I hope for somekind of miracle to happen. Give yourself some time m8. Go buy yourself a drink or a smoke, if you do neither I’m not the one reccomending it. Just shove your parents up your butt and do what YOU want to do, not anyone else. If you’re like me, for whatever reasons unable to do anything, watch a movie, you don’t have to do anything for it. If you are really getting to the point of exams or death…. Just forget about the exams. Tell everyone about your feelings, get heard. Scream it on the streets, classrooms, living room.
I thought it would be fair for me to tell people what happened. I put the gun to my head and pulled the trigger, but luckily for me I hadn’t loaded it. Now in that moment of time, I realised that I had more to live for. I understood that i wasnt a failure, and that I was me and no one could take that away from me. Thanks for the comments, they helped a lot.
It’s okay… I would take you to the coffeeshop or something you know.
You just have to find you inside yourself, not in others. If is the pressure, you have all the power to say no against it.
I’m glad my comment could help.
Please don’t shoot yourself jjb! Google ‘gun suicide pictures’ and see what comes up. Your parents would be absolutely devastated if you killed yourself. I understand the pressure that your parents have placed on you. My parents wanted me to become a doctor, but my grades weren’t high enough for medical school, so I became a teacher instead. There are other options. Talk to your parents and tell them that you’re under a lot of pressure. I’m sure they will be willing to help you.