Today at school we had something called “challenge day.” Basically 100 students and 20 teachers get together, do trust exercises, and spill their guts to eachother. At the end of the whole thing, everyone feels so close. They all cried, hugged. I guess it was a big emotional event. I didn’t get to go though. The whole point of the program is to get people to realize everyone’s equal, nobody should be bullied, everyone should be accepted. I think that’s a bit hypocritical. Why do it if you’re going to exclude so many people from it? I’m not really sure about it. I wish i could’ve done it.
it’s just not fair. it’s not fair that everyone gets to go and cry with people, and get comfort, and know people care.
and i’m stuck with going home cutting myself and crying alone knowing that nobody cares. it’s just not fair
it’s not fair that people get to go and have a life changing experience while i’m stuck in school feeling alone feeling like nobody knows who i am, or that i exist. and then going home and feeling hopeless near killing myself. nothing is fair and i know people are just going to tell me not everything is fair. but nothing is fair. nothing in this world is fair
the popular kids get favored, the unique kids rejected
the skinny ones loved, the ones over 100 pounds hated
the pretty ones praised and the ugly ones laughed at
nothing is fair
nothing at all
and its not fair that i come home and immediately feel trapped. i don’t know why i do but i do and the only way to get rid of that is to feel pain
either feel pain or end it all and i don’t know what to do anymore because i know whatever i pick won’t be the fair choice in any other persons eyes
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Don’t hurt yourself anymore. That is the choice you should make because there are people who care. Everyone here cares.
Wow, just wow. I can completely relate to that. Feeling like I don’t exist and trapped and life isn’t ever fair. It’s just not fair… feelings of everyday life
I’ve always wanted to go to a challenge day.
You should have talked to the teachers and let them know that you really NEED the challenge day help.