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I don’t know

by sleeplessinSTL 8/29/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

I don’t know what to do anymore. I was getting better, but it all just got ruined. I’m not sure that I want to move back home now. There won’t really be anyone waiting for me there. I’m just so confused. I don’t want to cry anymore and I don’t want to feel so inferior. I know, someone can only make you feel inferior if you let them. That’s easier said than done though. I just wish I could end it all, but every. single. fucking. attempt. Has failed.

I just can’t stand this anymore. I don’t know what to do with myself. I can’t very […]

8/29/2013 2 comments

Anxiety

by Lover4evr 8/6/2013

written by Lover4evr

In 3rd grade, I was told by my doctor that I had anxieties. I was going home from school everyday sick to my stomach due to my constant worrying. My father hadn’t contacted me in awhile and it was the first thing that had me worried so bad at a young age. I was making myself really sick and I’d have panic attacks. As I got older, I struggled with more teenage problems. My anxieties were at an ultimate high. I’m sixteen years old and can barely drive a car because I get worried about everything I’m doing and I have a panic attack and […]

8/6/2013 3 comments

Lost my coping mechanism.

by denidians 5/23/2013

written by denidians

I’m new so I’m sorry if I am not doing this right… Can I complain here? I’ve only read a little.

I had a hideous upbringing, a hideous adolescence… I joined the US military to escape home…

My very best friend in the whole world was someone I met online, actually. For years he was my confidant. Long story short, we met, fell in love. Much as I fled my home state, I up and fled my home country and moved to the other side of the world. Got into an excellent school, an excellent programme, doing all right. It was a struggle doing it, but everyone […]

5/23/2013 4 comments

Why?

by JustTooTired 2/12/2013

written by JustTooTired

I have nothing left, and I’m too damned old to start over.Â Getting to this point was painful enough, and I’m not going to put myself through it again.Â My username says it all.Â Continuing is exhausting and often painful, and I just don’t have the strength any more.Â I’ve lost all credibility at work, and with some reason.Â My skills have deteriorated and my memory is so bad that my knowledge is usually inaccessible.Â At home my wife has stopped all sexual activity, disapproves of nearly everything I do, and it certainly seems to me that I am only an income and an unreliable […]

2/12/2013 4 comments

lost

by aglswclr 2/7/2013

written by aglswclr

Today at school we had something called “challenge day.” Basically 100 students and 20 teachers get together, do trustÂ exercises, and spill their guts to eachother. At the end of the whole thing, everyone feels so close. They all cried, hugged. I guess it was a big emotional event. I didn’t get to go though. The whole point of the program is to get people to realize everyone’s equal, nobody should be bullied, everyone should be accepted. I think that’s a bit hypocritical. Why do it if you’re going to exclude so many people from it? I’m not really sure about it. I wish i could’ve […]

2/7/2013 4 comments

No one wants me anymore..

by BrooklynBoxx 12/11/2012

written by BrooklynBoxx

I got in a fight last night with my parents again. I’m a brat.. im a ***** the worst daughter in the world. I had a migrane cause my dad keeps FAILING to give me my meds on schedule and since theirs 22 of them starting and stopping them has major side affects. I fell asleep on the couch. After waking up at 11pmÂ i stood up to fix the pillows. And my my mom snapped saying i needed to clean them and what not.

I told her i just got up to do that and that i […]

12/11/2012 21 comments

Dear Boddah.

by PennyroyalTea 11/3/2012

written by PennyroyalTea

I’m so glad of being here again. I was missing this, the people and theÂ entries… everything. I feel really happy right now because I missed everyone.
Haven’t written in a while. It’s because I was busy, being a bad person. I already wrote a note to my imaginary friend (he killed himself a few weeks ago) apologizing because the things I’ve done. I’m sorry, I feel guilty. I think it wasn’t such a big deal but anyway… it was just wrong.
Talking about something else, I tried marijuana Â last tuesday. It was anÂ interestingÂ experience, I wasn’tÂ completelyÂ high but I did was feeling the effects of the drug. […]

11/3/2012 4 comments

Sick

by arizonaguy 10/30/2012

written by arizonaguy

I’m sick of waking up each morning. I’m sick of going to work. I’m sick of shitty customers who are trying to put words in my mouth or make me misspeak so they can get something for free. Or complaining about a non-issue just to get a discount. I’m sick of debt that I’ll never get out of, or school that I’ll never return to because of the debt. I’m sick of laying down ten hours of my life at my dead-end job so I can have just enough money to pay the bills for my shitty single bedroom apartment just so I can have […]

10/30/2012 17 comments

Famous last words

by somedaysoon13 8/16/2012

written by somedaysoon13

My chemical romance, just thought it was worth posting..

Famous Last Words lyrics
Songwriters:Â Iero, Frank; Pellisier, Matt; Toro, Raymond; Way, Gerard; Way, Mikey;

Now I know that I can’t make you stay
But where’s your heart?
But where’s your heart?
But where’s your?

And I know there’s nothing I could say
To change that part
To change that part
To change

So many bright lights to cast a shadow, but can I speak?
Well, is it hard understanding I’m incomplete?
A life that’s so demanding, I get so weak
A love that’s so demanding, I can’t speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to […]

8/16/2012 1 comment

My Ultimatun

by dedsldr 8/16/2012

written by dedsldr

I am a deployed military member on my 3rd combat deployment. Since joining I have never seen any combat. No mortar has ever come close. No IED has ever went off. No shots have been fired at me. I joined to go fight. I wanted to achieve greatness and kill the enemy. I changed jobs this time in order to give myself a better chance of getting in an engagement. This time like every other time I have beem deemed too necessay for staying on the FOB. To make matters worse, my spouse was hit by […]

8/16/2012 3 comments

A PATH TO THE DARK SIDE

by fakingit 6/10/2012

written by fakingit

wow, it scares me who i have become in just 15 years. i remember being very young 0-6 didnt give a fuck bout anything mainly cuz i was happy i lived in beautiful California had great parents (who gave me whatever i wanted) then a week before my 7th birthday my sister was born. then my life changed our house was way to small for a family of 4 so a year later we moved we were stuck in ahotel for 2 weeks before we finally got the keys to our new house which to me is way to huge for just 4 people i […]

6/10/2012 2 comments

Empty

by Everlasting 5/20/2012

written by Everlasting

I am trying to hold on, but I have been steadily tidying up my life these last weeks and I am throwing away my career and my life very quickly. I am steadily working towards the end and although I feel really bad right now, I know I will hold on another day or two. I keep trying to find excuses to carry on just one more day (new tattoos, new clothes/shoes to be bought tomorrow), anything at all. But it is all crap and means nothing. It is just a distraction from where I know I am heading. I hate to set deadlines, none […]

5/20/2012 1 comment

How long can you buy time?

by Everlasting 5/18/2012

written by Everlasting

A short post, because I am about to go to work and spend a few pointless hours doing something there now everyone is going home (so I can be alone).

Anyway, trying to buy time, moments, minutes and sometimes seconds. Now I find though it is not enough, this isn’t going to work in the long run. How can we buy time (and I do not mean economically) to keep ourselves alive when the pain is too great?

Have tried working, traveling, buying things, hurting myself, putting myself to sleep and just literally wasting time, but when those things pass, the pain remains, and it hurts like […]

5/18/2012 5 comments

Like picking up a drug, the act of suicide is the last step

by leezab39 3/15/2012

written by leezab39

I am a 39 year old woman. I have a roof over my head, four cats who love me and a fiance who begs me to move here from my home in Albany. I long to be a part of a family again. WE are both addicts though and I fear this will be done in vain. Im not sure what’s worse though…going home to my empty apt. where my children don’t live due to my depression, it’s dirty as I have given up the desire to clean, I don’t wash the way I did, make up and professional haircuts don’t […]

3/15/2012 3 comments

going home tonight

by truthbetold 3/11/2012

written by truthbetold

it doesn’t matter if I’m severely depressed or not

I’ve come to realize and accept that I genuinely don’t care for this 3D earthly experience

most goals I’ve pursued, I’ve come to realize it was because people had me believe it was important

everything I get involved in, I start to lose interest at some point

no dreams, no goals, no passions nor ambition .. nothing meaningful to hold on to

I’ve been told I should get a job in the meanwhileÂ .. yeah right

in other words, get back on the sheeple track

people tell you that stuffÂ cause they’re too immerged in this earthly experience

they hold on to it like […]

3/11/2012 9 comments