Hi there.. I am 11. I know im young . Way to young to be in love and doing everything im about to tell you. But here it goes. And read it all please..
Ok. My sister is getting married. My sisters fiance has a son. His name is Shannan. He is 15. The first time I met him he was really shy, hardly talked to me, and was addicted to xbox. But the boy looked cute. Ok.. Well My sister, Her Fiance, and Shannan all came to live with me and my mom at my house. It was the middle of August and we Shannan and I were outside sitting in my driveway playing 20 questions. We said a bunch of random ones then he asked me if I thought he was hot. (Cute sexy whatever you wanna call it) I said maybe maybe not the whole time instead of answering the question. Then he gave up and I asked him if he thought I was pretty. He said the same thing as I did. So we decided to say our answers at the same time. Me being a clever person I am and not wanting to embarrass myself said I would do it but then didnt and let him say his answer on his own. Which was yes. So I then told him yes and we talked a little more and acted like nothing happened. But something did. Shannan and I got very close after that. And he was so sweet and funny. We talked all the time. Fought over seats on the couch like brother and sister. Stuff like that. Then one day/night while everyone was asleep but me and him, We walked into my room to talk and shizz. Well we got tired and laid down on my bed. He laid really close to me so I scoot over. Then he gets closer and closer. I told him to stop so he did and licked my face. It was a face licking war. Then I said that the next time he licks me im going to bite his tounge. Im sick.. I know… But yeah…It happened. Anyways.. I bit his tounge and we magically started making out. I obviously just did what he did and went along with it. Then when we stopped he looked at me and smiled then did it again. I also did it again. From then on.. It happens… A LOT…
My mom doesnt know about it. Nobody does but my 2 bestfriends Melody and Sami. Which are my only friends may I add. Melody and me ended up drifting apart and she ended up not talking to me often. But Sami knows every detail about it. Anyways..
Shannan and me talk a lot still. Actually yesterday we texted and Sami was here. He called her beautiful. When he did.. My heart stopped. But I didnt show any emotion. I thought I was going to die. She looked at the text and smiled. I was so sad and angry. She looked at me and remembered I liked him and said grrr I wish he would just say he loves you or somthing. I knew she was faking. I didnt care. At that moment I knew I was going to end up never telling her anything again or talking to Shannan again unless I absoultely had to. But that didnt last long cause I ended up texting Shannan today and having a convo like nothing happened. But somthing did happen. And I wasnt happy about it.
This was at like 3:00 today. Since then I was thinking about him liking my friend but now  having no friends to count on… I might as well just… Die. I really want to die…Like … I have been bullied since 4th grade since when apperently I ‘sniffed’ the most popular boy in school. Which never happened! But I got bullied for that. Then I got bullied in 5th grade for being ugly and fat. But yet I was a slut too cause I have had over 20 boyfriends. Uh no. I have cut before.. It sorta helps but not really…
But I really need help on what I should do. Please? I will give my email to anyone that might want to help me or contact me.. Help?
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I have actually been were you are, at your age. I’ve been depressed for as long as I can remember. If you still live with him, you need to say something to your mother because that will eat you alive after a while. I know your stomach feels like acid, and you can’t stop thinking about it, but perhaps it was just a compliment? Or he is doing something immature that young boys do. Some boys do crap on purpose to see if a girl reacts, and if he is that type, he’s no good for you anyway. I would say let time take it’s course, if a few years pass an you still feel this way there’s a problem. Well . . . most would say a few months. Don’t make a hasty decision because of some stupid boy who may have just taken advantage of you.
Hi. Wow, that is quite a situation that you’re in. You’re too young to be thinking of suicide. Don’t feel too bad about what happened. I know that it feels like the end of the world, but it really isn’t. As you get older, you learn to deal with breakup better.
I’m gonna agree with Dave. You aren’t even a teen yet. YOu should be concentrating on school, hanging with friends. Not making out with a 15 year old. Oh and 20 boyfriends? You’re 11….you don’t need to be in a relationship you are what in 5th grade? Going into 6th grade? Seriously dating isnt everything…the cutting over a guy is not a good start…let’s face it when you do reach a more mature age you will date and they won’t be silly relationships that last like a week…they will be serious. Right now if you continue with that 15 year old he will start wanting more things, sexual things, and you’re what 11? You don’t want to end up being 13 and having had sex with a 17 or 18 year old…you’ll think back when you are older and regret having been so foolish…those cuts…those cuts make scars…many people do not look kindly on scars…please don’t be foolish and look for love…you will find it…and you might be lucky and find it at a yougn age…but trust me the guys that you date now are not mature…and they will not be kind to you and your heart. Don’t cut…not over a break up…break ups are common, guys liking someone else instead of you is also common…everyone faces that.
I will help you it is okay i helped many people even my friends. People said on this page that they wanted to die but i told them that they are worth it. Talk to me. I have been bullied since like 1st grade so i know what it is like to be bullied. I can give you great advice. Please give me chance to help you. I will help you, I promise. I will help you as much as i can and how much i can help you is a lot. I will be like a therepast to my friends becuase they tell me about their problems and i ask them questions and i give them totally great advice. So Please let me help you.