I’m not going to graduate. I know I’m not
My family, mainly my dad, who’s beeing emotionally abusive for years and years due to school, will abandon me, or maybe worse.
I mean nothing to most people who live near me, my only friends are words on a screen and they have kept me going whenever i tried to give up
but i cant keep putting it off.
Im a failure, and I need to get out of here.
I’ve wanted a painless, peaceful death for a long time, I’ve thought about sitting in my car in the garage, but sadly ive been told it wont work.
I’ve thought about vodka+pills, but i heard that doesnt work either, and I am 18 and cant buy my own liquor.
I’ve recently settled with helium asphyxiation, but now i’m seeing it either does not work or can rupture my lungs and make me suffer.
I’ve gone as far as to wonder if just tossing myself over an overpss nearby will be enough. But I cant wait much longer.
I just want to leave before it hurts any more than it does.
Please help me
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You sound like you’ve been through a lot, and if talking to people on here helps then carry on doing it. There is always someone out there who cares, you just have to find nice people which can sometime be the struggle. Don’t worry you are not alone. And if you want to talk, you can always talk to me.
Love Sarah 🙂
I didn’t graduate either. If ONLY my dad would leave and not come back and just leave me alone, that is a dream come true. A dream I know will never happen.
I feel for you and I wish there was a surefire way to off yourself, but there isn’t. I believe that the mind is a powerful thing against the body. I believe you can will yourself to die. But, no matter what you choose you’ll always wonder… “what if..”
Ive been told i can get my GED later on if i dont, and that i can run away with friend willing to shelter me. I’m just afraid my anxiety and depression wont quit, and that i’ll always feel terrible, like im a burden on them and stuff.
I’m thinkin about running away and living with them temporarily, It’s just getting to that point that scares me I guess.