tomorrow is sunday where i live. i haven’t been able to deal with the pain inside. my cutting is out of control. and if i had my way. id kil my self right this minute. but the pills i have wont kill you alone so i have to wait till monday when i get the rest. to be sure of death. i don’t know what to do . . . im tired of meds and therapy. im tired of all these things that aren’t helping me anymore. i wish i could just say good bye. you know. i might just try to find some other pills and mix them with the ones i have now. maybe alcohol will help. i don’t want to vomit everything up thouhg. and its my grams birthday who i live wit .. .but i don’t want her to burt. im lost. i jsut wnat to disapear without a trace. but thats not possiilbe
HELP… :'(
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oh sweetheart, get rid of those pills…
you don’t need any of that crap, there’s no way to take your own life without hurting the ones around you..so i guess the question is..
is it worth putting them through that type of pain ?
yes you are suffering right now, we all are, but it can be stopped. i know at this point, almost everything seems impossible…but u gotta stop and think….
do you already have everything you can possibly need?
are you focusing too much on all the negativity that you have forgotten what truly surrounds you….
i’m here for you.. and im listening…
I have been prepareing for months. even when i was happy. I don’t know what is wrond with me. I don’t want to live past my 18ths birthday which is in less than a month. i have many reasons. but since my last hospitalization ive becom smart and learned not to talk and learned how to face my happyness. no one will suspect. I know i have everything. Im sure of it. I jsut can’t deal with this anymore. im tired of help thats not working. I think im slowly friving my self madd the longer i stay alive. i really don’t know. i search and serach for sites. obbesessing over death and illnesses and other peoples sotries. and it makes me feel not so alone. that its ok that i want to do this. but i don’t know.. my family obviously doesnt see it that way
Look there r people out there and if u kill yous self those people will be so sad u just have to push each day it might be so hard but it is worth it. When u get to 21 u will see y
I would like for you to email me, if you would like to talk before its all done. If so, my email is Darc_Flame@yahoo.com. If not, well.. I hope you do.