it’s become evident that as of now my life is not worth living. i am miserable, lonely, and i cant afford to wait years, months, or weeks for my life to get better. i’ve been waiting for as long as i can remember. the only thing that i’ve learned from mental hospitals is that committing suicide is a selfish act. but isn’t it selfish to force someone to live in pain and agony day after day when they just want to die? i’m lonely. my dad is moving out of the state, my best friend only cares about drinking, and guys only use me for sex. i don’t want to die but i crave it. the mania i experience is driving me crazy; one minute i’m fine, the next i’m crying, then not too long after i’m laughing uncontrollably. i just wish i could be like everyone else. i’ve been trying to die for as long as i can remember. the only thing that’s keeping me afloat is my art show, and that is next tuesday. so i’m giving myself 10 days to prove me wrong. if i enjoy or feel even slightly okay a majority of the time i’ll try to make it a little longer. if not, i will inject myself with a few left over syringes of blood thinners and stab myself.
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Don’t go so soon.
I understand you’re a lonely girl.
Believe me, I know what that’s like. I may be a guy, and at that, young, but there are really good people out there.
I’m 16 and blind. People have screwed me over plenty of times, and you’re right, suicide is not selfish for you, but rather selfish in terms of others wanting you to live.
Stay strong.
I’m depressed 4 out of 5 days and yeah, I think of killing myself plenty of times, but yeah I’m here.
Email me if needed, it’s blindaudio@gmail.com
If you want to talk, my email is bnam906@gmail.com
hey text me or email me whenever you want to talk, ive been at where your at. and hey im still lonely as hell but im holding on
Greybackdavid@yahoo.com 1 423 902 8303
thanks, it’s nice to know someone cares.
10days: I’m here for you if you want to talk or anything. I know what’s it’s like to want to die and to be in complete misery 24/7. You are not alone!
here’s my facebook: facebook.com/josiahmendez
One thing that has been a huge encouragement to me is this podcast called the mental illness happy hour. maybe you’ll find some comfort listening to other peoples stories.
mentalpod.com