I let myself do this. Maybe one day things will get better. Right now I feel really sad over the stupidest thing. I guess it hurts to love and to get attached to someone. The only good thing that’s happened in a while. I miss him already. I need to grow up.. I feel like a danger to myself right now. I’m suppose to tell my parents when I don’t feel safe from myself but I’m hoping today will be the day I finally go through with it. I’m a monster I guess I can be heartless a lot. I don’t want to live this way any longer.
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(sigh) I’m sorry you’re sad, Sammie… You know… it’s normal to miss the one you love and to want to be all the time with him… But as long as you can be with him, why hurt yourself, love? Don’t “go through with it”… don’t you even try! 🙂 How was your day, love?
P.S. Did you get my email?
I once thought that liking or loving or even just having someone would make me happy. Now that I have someone I feel stupid by making myself believe that. I just got my hopes up. I feel really guilty that I’m not happy because he try’s really hard and I hate making him sad. He tells me how he was sad and how I made him happy. He thinks that I don’t love him like he loves me. I don’t know. It sucks. Yes I did. I gonna reply to it right now.
Yup, loving someone doesn’t automaticaly make you happy… But it can help you heal… Try and talk to him… assure him of your love… And try and make him understand that, even if you love him, you still have a lot of pain inside that won’t go away so easily… Assure him of your love and ask him to stay by your side… to help you… If he does love you, he’ll understand.
Hey,
If you ever feel the need to work this out with someone, please consider contacting someone, say at http://www.integralcounseling.org/ or at the number on the side of homepage… I believe you can talk to people over the phone, possible over email, and if you don’t want to spend much money, they can certainly accomodate you. These people want to help, and they’re there for you — You have nothing to lose by calling!