the only thing keeping me from a 23 storey free fall is guilt towards my family.
their love for me keeps me in this pain. I endure it to save them pain.
this is my thought process.
crying, bleeding monster is all I know how to be.
i wish I wasn’t afraid of hurting them.
i wish I could have that free fall peace.
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One day you will live for something bigger. It’ll be easy. Life is going to get better for you, One day. Hold fast to your family.
I often feel similar to how you express your situation. I am going through similar feelings and emotions and I realize that a few family members are the only reason I stick around on this forsaken planet. The world is a cruel place, and it seems once I lost my friends… I never really found a way to make new ones.
I hope that one day we will both be able to live and die happily.
Me too 🙁