I’m here because of him

If you saw my last post then you saw that I was gonna commit suicide that night cause I was so depressed and felt no one would care if I died. Well I called my bestfriend to say goodbye and he was freaking out begging me not to but my mind was made up. Originally I had plans to shoot myself but I had changed my mind and wanted to hang myself instead so I went into the garage and was setting up the rope when my friend came running thru my house and into the garage. He was crying so hard and was screaming please no, he ran up and just hugged me so tight and wouldn’t let go even though I was pushing away. He talked me into going in the living room and we talked for hours and after he looked at me and told me that he cared about me so much more than anyone he knew and that he would always be there even if I hated him for it. I thought no one cared at all but he actually got in his car and drove all the way to my house even though I told him not to keep me from dying. I can’t say that I’m “better” or that I won’t try again but now I know that at least one person cares. For those who have felt that no one would care if you were gone really look at your life and the people around you before ending it all there might be someone who does care. I am gonna try to pull through this and I do hope things will get better.