New, and need help..

1) FIRE YOUR THERAPIST. It takes a lot of searching before you find the right person to talk to, just like a friend, you don’t like everyone you meet instantly right off the bat.

2) If you are being followed always walk with someone, learn self defense. Don’t go to places where you might be cornered.

3) Ask to have the case reopened. You’re in a terrible situation and if worse comes to worse, find a safe house. If your parents know you were raped, and they should, and are unwilling to find a safe place for you, start asking around.

The most important thing to getting over any kind of molestation is to not give in to fear. It may happen again, I was molested several times, but you can develop the tools and strength to prevent, stop, or mitigate it.

Crisis Centers and Resource Centers are great places that offer both safe houses and self defense training. Consider volunteering at one, you will have a lot to offer from your experience. Helping others is a really great tool for empowerment.

That’s good you have a close relationship to your family. Don’t take it personally, some people have checked out of life, and you just crossed their path. It took me maaaannnnnnny years to come to grips with what happened to me. In the first few years, I was, for other reasons as well, living in a fog. But I’m stubborn and annoying so I refused to let it define me, although I guess it did, just in a good way.

Let yourself grieve. It’s going to take a lot to come back to the light again. But embrace a community, whether you are religious or not, find a group of people that you can spend time with. Volunteering saved me. Find a good cause.