People suck

I am going through so much drama right now and I dont know how to deal with it. I started to cut myself with a pocket knife blade that I have. I am a good student, friend, sister, daughter, etc. but lately things took a huge spin. There is this guy, who likes me a lot. His feelings for me are very strong, but the worst part is, I dont feel the same way and I am not attracted to him. He tries to make me feel special and says sweet things to me but then when I don’t say them back he gets mad, he gets mad and fights with me and stresses me out. The thing is, he has all his friends who will text me shit and make me feel like a ***** for being mean to him. I am a very sensitive person. So when they say hateful things I get really stressed out and I started cutting myself. I hate myself for not feeling the way he wants me to. I feel like the bad guy in everything I do now. I dont see anything positive about myself. It sucks. Life sucks. People are mean. I KNOW that my stories aren’t nearly as bad as some of the other kids on here and I KNOW I might sound selfish but thats not the case. there are so many more details that trigger this. I am trying to be better. I really am.