This year sometime

Im commiting suicide or attempting again.. when i was 14 i tryed with pills.. but got my stomatch pumped b4 i could die.. damn.. i tryed again last year but dont really have the balls to hang.. but im almost completed all my business that i had to b4 i can attempt again… im thinking october.. middle month.. damn.. if only my gun wasnt stolen then i would have died last year.. anyway im not scared of death.. i accually look forward to it.. but this i am sure of is my last year.. people in this fucking work are psycho!!