well its back aarrrggg

Well passed over at work again and now i want to take the biget with me how sad i want to go but i dont want to leave my wife or scar my kids or stepson, i just want to bang my head against the wall or go drive away for days but i will have to come back to me! wish i was able to turn off my head and sleep i am so tired and just tired (big sye) boo hoo what a suck i say to myself and go ahead you piss weak man and then the upper cut is no one will really remember or care in a couple of days or weeks or months. Funny they dont report the suicides do they fucken ostragest with thier heads in the sand. I wonder what the number is per day globaly. Wow sorry for the rant i would like to be more positive but im angry and tired and cant get to sleep to escape the cluster fuck in my head i hate it in here!!!!!!