You have to be!

just come back already! jump out and say Syke! just don’t be real…please…be alive…I can’t hear your voice, no way to call, I can’t see you, you’re on another continent…we lived in a virtual world…but…you still are family to me…so fucking be alive, don’t be gone…did you swallow your pills? did it work? did…did you cut too deep…was I the reason you left…I could’ve helped, I couldv’e saved you. It’s all my fault. You…you are not dead. you have to be alive…you have to be. YOU HAVE TO BE!!!