Ich dich nicht haben kann…even though I want to with all of my heart. You hurt me so badly sometimes. I don’t understand the things you do and why you would do them so carelessly to something that is a piece of you, that shares your flesh and blood. I would die for you, I really would. If it ever came down to you being killed or I, I would gladly and shamelessly step in front of you and guard you with every inch of my being. Your face is so beautiful…it’s perfect, even when you think you look like ‘hell warmed over and dipped in shit’. I think you’re most gorgeous when you wake up. You have this look on your face that reminds me of a waking child; so peaceful and even satisfied. Her makeup off, her hair disheveled and dark, and all curled up in a little warm ball. She’s so damn perfect…I can hardly get what I’m feeling out of me. Her hugs are the best thing in the world for me. She has this smell she’s had for as long as I’ve known her and can remember. It’s almost like her favorite perfume, Taboo. But she doesn’t have it anymore. It’s like the smell is her own. It’s really wonderful, and makes my head spin every time I smell it. She’s my world.
Ich wünschte, ich nie geboren wurde, just so I could stay with you forever. I would never have to worry about departing from you, and never have to wonder when the next time will be when I can be with you. I would always be with you, or for at least another 9 months. That’s better than every other few months. You’re so precious to me, you have no idea. I wish you could be happy forever and have everything you want and need. I wish you were healthy, in each and every way. I need you so much, mutter. Please don’t leave me.