At 24 years old, you’d think things would start to get easier. My life is “on track”. I followed all the rules…I graduated high school, I graduated college, I go a job in my career, I’ve found the guy for me, but is that it? Do I continue down this road that has already been paved for me? Do I continue to smile when my tears are as beautiful as the color of the crimson red that falls from my wrists? I don’t understand why I feel the way I do when I’ve “got it all”. It’s not fair for me to feel this way with this magnificent world surrounding me with beauty. I DON’T DESERVE IT!Â
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When depressed, you will never be good enough to you. You could travel the world with bottomless pockets of cash and be confined to despair.
This feeling you carry with you, this melancholy, must be accepted as a part of your life before it can be set free. Perhaps there is a part of you that enjoys the safety of depression and it’s low expectations. When there is no peak, happiness, there is also no desendence to fall down to.
I would say I’m envious of your success however, I’ve come to realize that until I overcome my chronic sadness, I won’t be able to enjoy any fruits of life I may bear.
Happiness is a state of mind; having strength and optimism when sad is painful, especially when one is hopeless. Stick around, please. Enjoy the ride. Take action to thr contrary and experiment with this time you have here.
You actually have everything to live for. You just need to overcome your sadness. You have a career, education, and a boyfriend. Most people here don’t have those or someone. I’m sure if you talk to your bf he will understand. Honestly, enjoy what you have now because it seems to me that even though you are in a dark place, light is shining on you very brightly. You don’t deserve it, I don’t think anyone does. I don’t think there should be a site like this or a suicide hotline or a thought of suicide, but unfortunately this is reality and people do get depressed to a point of where they self destruct. Hang in there. You’ll realize soon that your a very fortunate person.
At least you have someone to love you and help you with your suffering. Most of us here don’t have that. 🙁
You’re right Dave and that’s why i’m upset cause I dont deserve the things I have. Im a piece of shit with a wonderful life and I want to appreciate what I have amdnd be happy at the same time. God I fucking suck!
Help me please!!!