what if i never get anywhere with my life. the thought of me not going to new york. not going to be a chef. that makes me feel physically sick. i cant handle it. its all too expensive. one course is $62978.52 i cant earn that by myeslf in four years. i cant even get a job until im 16. im going to be a failure nothing is going right im stupid and ugly and unnattractive and i just dont see any point anymore.
i dont want to be around just to kill myself when im 40 and havent been able to do any of the things i want to do now.
when i was little i thought this was going to be easy. i never thought that at 14 i would be crying myself to sleep over what i am going to do for the rest of my life.
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dont you have any other interests?
it is the one thing i wanted to do with my life, and i have nothing else i am remotley good at. im so lost now,
If you like cooking, why not go for other options than a chef- cooking contests, blog with recipes- I’m not sure
You have a dream of you doing somehing that your actuall good at. You have that talent. Most people including me had dreams of ourselves doing something that we thought we was for us but we found in reality, we are not good at.