Not Sure Which Way to Go

I’ve noticed that in the most desperate despair, the allure of hope seems brightly magnified… but upon returning to the less extreme “re-entry” zone, at the beginning stages of “recovery,” that once glorious slim hope, can seem to quickly lose its luster.

It’s not something you get through once, and are fine.

It’s something you fight constantly, until you’ve made enough progress that your life isn’t constantly dragging you down again, back to that same place it’s so easy to give up hope of escape.

Idk. I just don’t think such fragile relationships (which far too many seem to be) are worth being so upset about. If it’s real and worth effort, it shouldn’t just be ruined by some disagreement or misunderstanding. However, if there is a fundamental personality difference causing incompatibility… then there might just not be much you can do. People should explore compatibility and make sure it exists, before “diving in” and making all sorts of deep emotional commitments.

But i know how it is to be human, and to want that badly enough to leap without looking closely enough.

If it’s someone who wants to be there, they’ll be there, even if stuff goes wrong sometimes. If not, it’s not worth agonizing over.