I’ve been postponing the inevitable for a long time, but tonight is the night. I will not be waking up tomorrow but everyone else will. I wish it didn’t have to be this way but it is what it is. my mom has an idea and all my friends know im not doing good but no1 seems to care which doesn’t bother me at all. I just think its bullshit that everyone is fine now with me being by myself feeling this but tomorrow everyone will be crying at how much they miss me and wish they could have done something but you couldn’t. In order to make you life better you have to have the will do to it and frankly, I don’t have any will left at all. Im not here for a cry for help just want to tell someone, so sick of being in my head and not being able to talk to anyone about it due to the scared thought of getting locked up again or being judged by someone who doesn’t know what this feels like.
that being said, if there is anyone out there who wants to talk to me on my final day (since no1 else will) I would appreciate it… if you do please don’t be sad or pity me. I am not sad nor am I angry. I am just empty.
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Tell me about yourself, I too am on the way out so you’re not alone in your decision making .
I emailed you forsaken1
I would also like to talk to you if it’s not too inconvenient. shlunka@gmail.com
I have longed for empathy. I understand you. You can tell me it’s BS when I say that, but I have longed for empathy too. My life is going down the drain and the few ones around me are more worried about menial chores. Absolutely no one backs me up in my decisions. This website is the 1st very place where I have found people who at least in parts understand me. However, I hope you somehow change your mind and find the light. I know it’s not easy, it’s not easy for myself either.
Stay strong, peace out.
You are not alone I do respect your decision, I myself feel deep pain right now, and wish I did not wake tomorrow either but over think your situation there might be another way out and death is not necessary the way, but whatever you do my it be for your best.