21 questions

Hey, im back. I felt the need to take a rant. Read if you wish but if you dont i dont mind.

Its 1:04pm Sydney time and its Wednesday

So, over the course of 2 days, i have told my best guy mate that i started cutting and i was really giving up on life & personal stuf that was going on inside my head.

We played 21 questions the other night and i told him i would answer anything truthfully, and so i did. The questions started of as a joke but then got serious.

He asked ” why did you start cutting?” i told him that i feel like everything is falling part! i have lost loved ones, and im starting to feel like i dont belong.

Then he asked what i was insecure about. I told him my body. Im not the skinnest person and not the prettiest person ever. Im not super tall. I hate my body even though i do heaps of  sport. He told me to stop. He told me i was beautiful, he told me to stop cutting , he wishes he could see the old me, before my world turned upside down, he told me to forget what people think about me and to start thinking about life and he told me a story on how he lost a friend to all this that im doing. It made me re-think that im not alone, it made me feel that i was important, even if i was too blind to see it.

After this i logged off facebook. I looked at my self in the mirror and smiled.