I need help i can’t decide if i should live anymore here’s some reasons why 🙁
1. My Real dad died when i was young
2. My step dad blames me for all his fights the he starts
3. My sister has said to me she hates me
my bffl: so here’s a message  i hope you like me you’ve bin one of the nicest friends too me you’ve helped me stuck up for me played with me i trusted you with all my secrets you make me laugh all the time i love you as a friend
Mum: i love you you’ve done nothing to me it’s not your fault that I’m feeling deppression every day you went through the pain to carry me around for nine months went through the pain to give birth to me.
Step Dad: you’ve bin silly and funny sometimes but your one of the reasons why im depressed every day you’ve blamed you fights on me and sarah picked me up by my throat  do you love me i don’t think so you’ve said to me that i was a mistake even though you’re my step dad you’re one of the reasons why i feel like commiting suicide
Real Dad: i love you you’ve never bin the reason to make me commit suicide apart from when you died when i was 5 i miss you and i always will my friends have said to get over it because it happend 5 years ago but i will never get over it i love you
Sister: We’ve had are fights but that will never stop my love for you even though you’ve said you hate me i know you were just mad but you’ve helped me when i was was upset you’ve helped me through life i love you
What should i do should i go through it or should i just stay strong i need some advice please help me
4 comments
Hi, Nicole.
Losing your dad when you’re so young… Sorry; really… No, you can’t simply “get over it” – that’s your dad; I’m much older than you – my died passed on 11 years ago, and I still struggle with with his death.
It’s terrible that you’re being told that you’re “a mistake” — you’re NOT a mistake… No none is more special than anyone else; we’re all special – Your dad loved you; unfortunately in this life, this sort of tragedy happens, leaving us hurt and feeling uncertain about things, especially if we’re not in a healthy, supportive environment…
Can you speak to someone around you about what’s going on at home – some supportive, trusted family member perhaps ? You should speak about what’s going on with you, how you’re feeling, perhaps even with a counselor at school. You seem to have a good relationship with your mom – sit down with her and tell her that you’re really not coping with all that’s going on. Please talk to someone. Keep writing here if you need to as well. Take care, Nicole246.
Stay strong and stay here, please. If you will end your life, all chance for change will be lost. Suicide versus life is infinity versus zero.
INFINITY>ZERO
Please, stay.
I know this might be hard, but it would probably be beneficial if you showed your family what you have written here. They will stop hurting you, or at least will try, when they see what it does to you.
Stay strong!
I would have liked to edit that a bit… Hope you’re okay, Nicole.
Hello Nicole,
I know what you’re going through. It tough time. Like “searchingformeaning” said, losing a parent is really painful. Kind of pain that never completely disappears, but becomes manageable. It’s difficult, but know that you’re not alone. Your friends may not understand. It’s not their fault: they don’t know what it is. Find people who living the same experience. Share your pain with them. They will understand and give you precious advice how to manage this.
For your sister: she loves you. I’m sure that she just don’t realise how much you’re currently suffering. Can you talk with her? In other times, have you a good relationship together?
When I was teenager, I use to have a so bad relationship with my brother. We felt apart so many times. And been so mean to each other. Kind of mix of cruelty and love that can exist only between brothers. But we always love each other. How much he can still annoy me some time: he is my brother. He is in a way the closer person I will ever have.
Nicole, it sound really french as name. Do you speak french?