nobody really knows what I feel like inside. I am in therapy and medication but I still don’t feel good. I cut just to release what I am feeling inside. some people have seen the scars but they will never understand. I lost many people in my life and the only thing keeping me going is bands. I have bad social anxiety and I can’t stand others seeing my ugly face. some people at school tease me but that is only to impress their friends. I truly hate myself. every feature about me. my nose, my hands. my back, my elbows, my chin, my cheeks, my fingers, my toes. my thighs, my calves, my face and just everything. Not too many people care about me, maybe 4 people who might be sad for a day or two if I died. I feel like crap everyday. so many days I was close to committing suicide.
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This sounds like my friend Aria…she’s in a really tough spot in life, as I imagine you are. I feel like I have taken her under my wing and have given her some hope.
If you’d like to talk at all about anything, you can email me 🙂
frejashinepaws@gmail.com
healingselfinjury[dot]org/resources[dot]html
– maybe you could find something useful
I’ve also had social anxiety; still do a li’l bit.
Keep talking, writing, find and join a support group(s); hang in there; just find something, some talent / hobby you have, to immerse yourself in. Take care.