I’m feeling rushed. I made a goal of killing myself before Christmas, and it seemed like a good date. But every other day or so, I get this feeling of anxiety that’s scaring me. It’s making me feel like I’m going to die before I’m ready for it. It’s really a mix of anxiety and fear.
My stepdad got a .44 caliber and I’ve been listening to what he says. I think it’s in a locked drawer in his room.
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Whatever you decide, do NOT use his gun! You’ll leave an incredible mess of guilt and anger and blame for others to deal with. If you have been hurt by life, it is obligatory that you not hurt others.
If you feeling like this, you are probably second guessing your choice..
what does this mean?
well it most likely means you don’t really want to kill yourself.. or yet at least..
maybe you have some things you want to get to do.. or goals to accomplish..
forget suicide for a bit and focus on why you’re filled with anxiety..
you might learn something more about yourself..
yeah, you sound like you are just fed up with life and don’t want the bs that comes along with it. definitely don’t use his gun since that will f him up for several lifetimes.
i find running a fantastic way to deal with panic.