No land for old men

RDR – thank you for posting. The little bit you shared just touched my heart and I want to share with you for we have similiar stories. I too am the youngest in my family. I too have not had success with my relationships with women. I was married for 20 years until we divorced last year. My ex cheated on me with multiple affairs but we stayed together for our children who we showed much dsyfunction. We divorced and she remarried a man she was having an online affair with. Go find someone she said. I don’t care. So I did. A woman from my past who lived far away. I thought she was an answer to prayer and she helped me through my divorce. I married her even though I did not know her and God was trying to show me that this was wrong. But when you are starved for love and lonely, it is hard to turn away from flattery and attention. We married and it lasted all of one month before I asked her to leave. Totally deceived by an angry woman who just used me to get out of her own self imposed hell but she was good with words and flattery and got me where I was weakest. So I got an annulment but it cost me money I didn’t have and worst, it caused more harm to my children as they went through this short marriage. Divorced and an annulment all in one year and how badly it hurt them. What a laugh, what a cry but through all this I have learned one great lesson. The most important relationship we have to have in our lives if we want to have peace, is with God. I learned that is was my selfishness that was hindering my walk with him. I learned that only when we deny ourselves and pick up his cross and follow him will we have what we need. I truly believe that God loves us so much that he will give us what we need and when we need it but we have to put him first and grow strong in him. The personal intimate relationship with the God that created the heavens and the earth and you and I. We have a purpose to fulfill if only we will turn to him. When we have peace with him and walking with him, he will lead you to people. One of them will be a mate that won’t stray or decieve because if you are wise you will choose one of like faith. I am alone now and content to be alone because I have more time to study his Word, pray and share what I have learned with others like you. Will I always be alone? I will be 52 this month and my thought is that God knows what I need. I don’t worry but enjoy the moment I have now. We have a choice. Be patient and build your foundations now grounded in his Word through study and prayer. Even at my age, I am starting over and I am okay with it. I have much to offer yet as do you. Don’t give up but give in to him. This is what I have found that works for me. Choices… send me an emai if you like. joash1611@gmail.com