My boyfriend sings me You Are My Sunshine every night before I go to sleep. Â And he’s tone deaf. But it’s that simple thing, that small gesture, that makes me feel a little better about myself. I know I’m not near as bad as I used to be, I haven’t had one of my episodes in a few weeks. I really just feel like I need to make the better of situations, I need to stop being negative and holding onto the past. Maybe it was my fault I’ve been this way? In some ways it was, and in other ways, it wasn’t.
I haven’t thought of suicide as much. It crosses my mind, but I push it away. I’m staying strong and I’m not letting depression win. This is my battle, and I plan on winning it.
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Life can be so good if you just let it 🙂
What you are experiencing is normal sadness, you would have to further research depression for a better understanding.
Just comes to show things can get better, people have to stop denying themselves of a better life, cause it can happen 🙂
Thats sweet. I’m hlad he does that. Just try your best.
Yes! When those negative thoughts come, don’t let them stay. Just keep on focusing on the positive. I think looking back is good if there is something we need to heal from by either forgiving that person who hurt us or forgiving ourselves for what we did. Forgive and move on and focus on the positive new day that is upon us. I like turtles because they never look back and are always looking ahead. And just like that old story from Aesop’s Fables of the tortoise and the hare, our lives can be the same way. Just keep moving forward day by day letting the light from above shine on us to illuminate our paths. Just the other day I saw a huge snapping turtle and fed it bread and he ate it. So amazing these creatures are and I fed this one a meal. Sometimes it is the little positive things, like your boyfriend singing to you, that mean the most. We just have to look for them when we get in our slumps.