They say that when jump off a building, before you touch the ground, your whole life flashes before you. Sometimes I want to try and do it. So that I may know if what they say is true. And if it’s true, I wanna know if the life I have been living is a good one.
I am facing a lot of problems lately. I am already at my 8th year in college and still have not graduated. I already have a son but I am not in good terms with his mother. I have a lot of debt; I just been kicked out of my apartment because I cannot pay the rent. Sometimes, before going to sleep, I keep thinking what’s the sense of all this. You’re supposed to live and be happy because you only have one life. But why do I feel the opposite? There is this gaping hole of loneliness in my body that continues to swallow me from the inside.
I am bound to be doomed. Forever shackled by this ball and chain called life. Constantly tormenting me as I continue this harrowing journey. And as I walk aimlessly to free myself from this misery, I sing a plaintive song. Hoping that somehow, someone might hear, and come save me from this unending agony.
I just found out this site recently, and after reading some of the posts, I just felt that I belong. You know, that somehow, somewhere in this cruel and unforgiving world, you have somebody that thinks just like you. And if there is a way that both of you can communicate, you both might be saved.